Things I Wanna Do in 2012
With 2012 around the corner, and bits of optimism kind of starting to shine through over the thought of starting anew, I have decided that there’s a lot of things that I need to do or I want to do. So I thought I’d share them.
First, and foremost, I need to get a job. I need a real life full-time gig that will make me good money. I need to get the hell out of Subway and I need to go out into the real world. I need to grow up, dammit! And a new job is a surefire way for me to do that. I mean I’m gonna be 27 in March. Clock is ticking!
However, I gotta admit I have this crazy idea for the summer if this should not pan out. Basically, I’ve always had this dream to be a comedy writer/comedian in general. It’s a stupid dream that I’ve always let my lack of self-confidence tell me that I’m not good enough. However, with me being 27 by this summertime, I think I’m going to give this dream a last chance power drive. I’m going to take a month or two to go out to California and give it a shot. If it doesn’t pan out, then I’ll head back with at least some satisfaction in the fact that I gave it a shot. No love lost, no pride broken, just glad to give it a shot. A silly idea, I know, but I ain’t getting any younger so why not?
Another thing I wanna do is lose weight. I’m no fatty fatty fat fat but I’m aware I gained some weight since last year and I’m not too thrilled about it. I need to get myself back in shape. I need to get walking and just shed a few pounds. I dunno how I’ll do it, but mostly just a lot of walking and a lot less snacking. And probably some more greens here and there. I don’t have a goal of how many pounds, but I just wanna lose enough so that I feel good about myself.
I also want to start up a webseries of some sort about SNL or comedy in general. If I do this, and you are interested, be sure to let me know. If I can could a comedy-wide thing maybe I can have folks tackling different areas of comedy. I’m mostly thinking SNL because that and 1950s sketch comedy/variety show stuff is what I’m the best versed in. I got a decent knowledge of other forms but not that great. I’ve always wanted to try to do something. I love teaching people about the things I know a lot about and what better way? And hell, if I’m wrong, I’m totally cool with that too so long as nobody’s a dick about it and correct me all politely.
And I guess if there’s one more thing that I want to do, it’s probably to just be more sociable. I need to get out more. I need to mix and a mingle with others. I may be socially awkward and have interests that would confuse the balls out of some folks, but hey, I’m sure there’s others out there like me nearby. Nothing against my internet friends, of course. They are awesome. I like them much. I need more local friends.
And really, just to top it off, I think I want to find the right guy. Perhaps this is me overreacting because everybody seems to be getting all married and shit. Everybody my age seems to just be like “LOLZ STARTING FAMLIEEZZ!” which makes me feel super lonelypants. I still think I’m too old to get married, but I mean to find the right guy, I think I need to find them soon. Time feels like its running out. However, my mom didn’t marry till she was in her 30s…three of my cousins married in their 40s on that side…and I do look a lot younger than I really am which is a nice bonus. But I still feel like I’m years behind everybody else my age. It kinda sucks. That being said, I think I’m gonna rephrase this from “find the right guy” to “don’t actively look, but if I find the right one, don’t be a wuss”.
And that’s my biggest goal. I want to be less of a wuss. I want to stand up for myself and show people that I am not gonna just bend and break to their every freaking whim. I have my own opinions and thoughts. I have my own way of being, so shut up and let me be. I don’t force my opinions on you, so don’t’ force them on me! I’ll still listen to people but I don’t wanna feel like I have to apologize for who I am every time I talk to someone. I don’t apologize for who I am, but I always feel like I should. And that sucks. I hate that feeling. So I think I’m just gonna be more proactive in life.
Then again, these are things I say I wanna do. Will I do them? Who knows, but I sure hope that I do.
PS re: Webseries, anybody interested? What field are you interested in covering of comedy?
